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I had the most wonderful dream a few nights ago.In my dream, I was having a sleepover at a cabin with a few friends, where we were all going to sleep on the living room floor. I fell asleep, but then woke up right away feeling all wet. At first I thought it was sweat, which didn’t make sense because I wasn’t hot. I then noticed that only my t-shirt was wet, and it had a baby-milk smell to it. I right away realized that I WAS LEAKING BREAST MILK! I was so excited, but embarrassed about my wet shirt at the same time. I went upstairs to the bathroom, trying to hide the huge wet spots on my shirt from the guys walking down the stairs.

Once I got to the bathroom, I squeezed my nipples to see if more milk would come out, and as I did so, the milk would run down my breast and onto my tummy. I thought to myself, “I am actually going to have to wear a bra to keep my shirts dry”! I put on a sports bra to absorb the leakage, and a dry white t-shirt over it. As I went back downstairs, I was excited to be wearing a bra that was most definitely noticeable through my thin shirt. Of course, being a dream, none of my friends asked about my bra, even though they all noticed it. I really wanted to share the exciting news about my lactation, but my dream ended before I could do so.

I woke up from the dream with the happiest feeling. Even though I have no idea what it feels like to leak breast milk in real life, it was an amazing feeling to experience it in a dream setting, along with having to wear a bra to hide the leakage.

I think my dream was influenced by my Internet research on induced lactation from the night before. My breasts had stopped leaking colostrum as of a few weeks ago, so I was looking to see if there were any supplements that would induce lactation in males. I found that some women and trans-women take a drug called Domperidone (Motilium), which increases prolactin levels, resulting in milk production. I don’t have any intention of trying it in the near future, but even so, it was interesting to read about the lives of men and t-girls who lactate (with or without the drug), and to imagine myself in their position.

I apologize for my blogging hiatus these past few months. My transition is coming along, slowly but surely. I am still taking only four TransFemme pills per day. Even though it is really tempting to take the full dosage and get quicker results, I’ve only taken half of the recommended pills because I can save money while still getting gradual results (I only use four bottles every eight months). Also, it gives me more time to get accustomed to my small-but-growing breasts.

Back in March, I also started using Natureday Breast Cream twice daily. I decided to try it because of all the positive reviews they have on their website, and because it is cheap (a $35 jar of cream can last me 1-2 months). I use the cream right after showering and right before bed, putting a bit of extra cream over each nipple. It’s hard to tell how much of my recent growth is from the TransFemme pills or the Natureday cream, but I’ve definitely noticed exciting changes these past few months. Though my breasts are not detectable through my everyday clothing yet, I can definitely notice the growth when my shirt is off, or when I wear tight shirts (which I never do in public).

My feminization journey hit several high points recently. In early April, I noticed that my nipples felt pretty sore. I was wishful that my breast development would take off, yet I was very doubtful. But only a few days later, a small nodule developed under each nipple. I can’t even describe the excitement I felt! The nodules continued to increase in size, and right now they are each about one inch in diameter. They don’t seem to be growing as much right now, but I still feel the soreness and tingling, so hopefully they’ll continue to enlarge!

Also, a few weeks ago, I noticed some weird sensations on my nipples during the day. It almost felt as if I was lactating, but when I would check my undershirt, it would be completely dry. It continued for a few days, and eventually I decided to squeeze my nipples to see if anything would come out. To my surprise, I was able to get a few drops of thick, clear fluid (colostrum) out of my nipples. I think it would be amazing to be able to produce actual breast milk, but I guess I’ll have to wait.

My permanent hair removal is going quite well. I think my legs and thighs are going to be completely hairless very soon. I probably would’ve finished several months ago, but I’ve found it hard to make time to shave my legs and use the Silk’n on them.

When I first used the Silk’n, it left a bunch of hairless square patches, but there were some spots where it didn’t work very well. I gradually increased the treatment intensity over time, with slightly better results after each treatment session. Right now, I treat each spot twice at the highest intensity (despite the warnings), and so far, it has done an excellent job of killing the hair follicles. I think the only reason I have a little bit of hair left on my legs and thighs is because it’s hard to keep track of where I’ve zapped.

Well, that’s how my feminization is going right now; slow and steady. Hopefully the next few weeks and months will bring even more exciting changes!

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